My Journey

And the healing continues

Hi Everyone,

I thought I would pop in and just give a brief update as I haven’t been around much lately.

My last post was about my own healing journey and how I was going to a wonderful place inside myself to do some inner work – well all I can say is once you step inside there you discover an awful lot about yourself.

Not that I didn’t already know this or been there before, but this journey has been particularly long and arduous and I have certainly met some interesting characters along the way, some who have shocked me, some who have helped me and some who have totally baffled me.

Yet each of them have enriched my journey immensely and enlightened my path even with their venom or uncaring nature. So for that I thank them.

I decided to give the Dr’s a miss and heal myself and the most amazing thing happened, I developed a small lump on my stomach which grew rapidly and developed into the most painful expericence I had encountered.

I had some burning sensation on the skin on my stomach, as I felt it I noticed a lump it was quite big about the size of a 50 cent piece, it wasn’t sore so I left it, thinking it was just a cyst or boil or something….but it had a few edges to it. Later that night I had what felt like an ovarian cyst burst, then the lump began to grow and became painful beyond belief I was in agony……I left it hoping it would go away ( I hate drs and of course drugs) by the next morning it was the size of the palm of my hand, red blistery and very nasty….by this time I couldn’t walk as it was in a position that it was pressing on my leg as I walked it was so big…so I waited and called a locum, he told me I needed to go to emergency ASAP and have IV antibiotics…..I wasn’t happy, I have a fear of hospitals and put it off as much as I could, but by now it was red and angry and was yellow and black and looked like I was about to give birth to an alien! So in absolute agony and tears I got down the stairs and we went to emergency. We waited hours and hubby said by now I was looking yellow around my eyes and mouth, I was admitted and given an IV antibiotic. I am highly allergic to pretty much all drugs so I had bad reactions to two of them and by the next morning it was even bigger it was now the size of my whole hand and poked out about as big as my fist.
I was admitted by a surgeon to the hospital, I’d been in ER all that night, as I was sitting up to get into the wheelchair it ruptured, I saw blood etc all over the bed….It was about 7am….I went to my room and hoped it would all be ok now and I could avoid surgery, but I was told I still needed it….they finally took me into theatre at 8.45pm that night.

The doctor said he cut something out he’s never seen before, but by the next morning I was feeling so much better, not only pain wise but this horrible fatigue and fever and aching I’ve had for sooo long had gone….

Now I’m wondering what on earth it was and if I’ve had something brewing for years?

I went home with the best carer ever, my hubby, who never left my side and was an amazing support.

I had a gapping hole in my tummy that needs to heal now and had to wash and pack it at home and was feeling better, however 3months later I still have a hole that is healing and that is where my other journey began

Being bed ridden for so long I was going crazy, but I didn’t have the energy to do much else, so I decided to use the internet to keep my creativity alive.

This is where the fun began – albeit tedious and emotional.

To be continued

Aurora

I Promise Myself.. by Christian D. Larson

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.

To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.

To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.

To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.

To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

Christian D. Larson

Judgement!

     
“We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It’s one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it’s another to think that yours is the only path.”

How many times have you been told by people who think they are trying to help you, ” if you only did some exercise you would feel better” or “if you only ate healthy like I do you will be fine” etc etc. Having a chronic health condition, especially one that involves pain and debilitating fatigue is hard enough, but when you feel judged because others think they know what is best for you, this simply shows their ignorance, not their want to help you, not their need to support you, simply their lack of compassion and understanding. These people seem to like to find fault in what you’re doing like there is a reward for it.

When I finally worked out for myself that I had PCOS, I decided I had to figure out what would heal MY body to achieve a pregnancy, not what the Doctors thought would help, ie simply lose weight and you can read what I did to do that in my PCOS story part 2. as it is not about losing weight but how you heal yourself.

Once more I am faced with some health issues that I again have diagnosed myself, and now I find the Drs even less understanding as I just turned 49 and they think I will soon enter menopause so, meh who cares! However my PCOS is slowing killing me and once again I have to go within to heal myself. I strongly believe its not about losing weight or eating just raw vegetables that heals us, I believe it is a mind, body and soul project.
So….

I’m going on a journey!

That’s right I am off on a journey, to a really exciting place, where spiritual enlightenment will be deepened and childhood issues will be healed. It’s a wonderful warm place, where I feel comfortable every time I visit and the host makes me feel loved unconditionally.

I am going to visit ME.

Yes that’s right I’m sure some of you have been there before, it’s a magical place and I can’t wait to go. It’s been calling me for a while now, and of course I kept putting it off, waiting till I had enough time or finished my last reading, but my body grew tired and developed symptoms that I could no longer put off. I believe there is only one way to heal my body and that is by listening to it. Doctors wanted to give me medications but I know my body does not like that and just as I healed myself once before I will again, so I am finally going….

And when I return from ME I hope to be able to share my experience with YOU! 

Thank you to my wonderful support team Bill, Jean and my soul sister Steph and of course my amazing husband who has shown me that he loves me whether I am fat, thin, sick or well!

That is what true love is about, not judgement!

Lots of love always 

Aurora

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I’m shaving my head for a good cause!

I am trying to raise money for my lovely friend and a gorgeous soul Kylie Barber, Kylie is fighting a very brave battle with cancer and I would like you all to sponser me, if I get $1000 for her I will shave my head, if it’s less I will dye it the colour she chooses! PM me for details if you would like to help. As I don’t believe in paying bosses to run charities this money will go to Kylie to decide how it will best help her fight xx

This is how she described it to me…

Hi Aurora I have Diffuse Large B Cell Lymphoma, it is a aggressive Lymphoma that went straight to my bones and when I was diagnosed in August, it had caused my Verterbrae to fracture as my bone marrow had started to come out. It is in my L1,L3 and L5 of my Verterbrae and it is also in my pelvis, the tops of my legs and in my ribs. It was diagnosed because of terrible back pain I was getting since February last year and I was still playing netball three times a week and was very fit, they did not diagnosis for six months, because it didn’t show in the Xray’s or the CT Scan, it was only when I had the MRI done, that it was found.

For more information please visit www.shaveforkylie.weebly.com

Much Love
Aurora xx

Phew!!!!!!!

What a few months it has been, I have gotten married, moved house, my youngest daughter graduated high school and that was only in 2 weeks of those few months!!

I have some wonderful stories to share such as:
Why the local firemen came running up to the roof top where we were getting married just after the ceremony!
How stress can be a real killer!
The inspiration I found from a lady bravely battling cancer
Health
Love
Life
and the lessons I have learnt.

I thank you all for your support and understanding the past few months and look forward to helping and meeting even more of you in the new year.

I am taking the rest of this year off and will return with exciting new blogs, pictures and updates in the new year.

So for now please take care of yourselves and each other and remember you are loved and how much you can love!

Much Love Always
Aurora

Wedding Belle

Hi everyone,

Just a short post to let you all know that I won’t be updating for a few months as I will be busy with my wedding plans for the 11/11/11!!

I will attend to any requests upon my return

Much love to you all

Aurora xx

Please Understand Me.

“If I do not want what you want, please try not to tell me that my want is wrong.

Or if I believe other than you, at least pause before you correct my view.

Or if my emotion is less than yours, or more, given the same circumstances, try not to ask me to feel more strongly or weakly.

Or yet if I act, or fail to act, in the manner of your design for action, let me be.

I do not, for the moment at least, ask you to understand me. That will come only when you are willing to give up changing me into a copy of you.

I may be your spouse, your parent, your offspring, your friend, or your colleague. If you will allow me any of my own wants, or emotions, or beliefs, or actions, then you open yourself, so that some day these ways of mine might not seem so wrong, and might finally appear to you as right — for me. To put up with me is the first step to understanding me. Not that you embrace my ways as right for you, but that you are no longer irritated or disappointed with me for my seeming waywardness. And in understanding me you might come to prize my differences from you, and, far from seeking to change me, preserve and even nurture those differences.”

This is an excerpt from the book Please Understand Me 2 by David Keirsey.

Love Aurora xx

Fully Booked

Thank you to everyone for your wonderful support, it has been such a joy and pleasure to be able to work with so many of you, knowing that I am helping you to alleviate your pain and help with your growth means the world to me and makes what I do worth while

As of today I am fully booked until December and can’t take on any new clients for now, so I encourage you to put your name on the waiting list in case I have any cancellations.  To do this please click HERE.

I will still be updating the blog, keeping you up to date with the Flare Repair and also working on new and exciting ways to make my services available and accessible to everyone.

Keep an eye out on the web page for new –

Meditation MP3’s

Healing MP3’s

Pain Relief MP3’s

Exciting new Flare Coach Service.

Plus more….

Blessings to you all

Aurora xx

Judgement

I saw this on a wall about 15 years ago and it spoke to me, very profoundly, it was on a wall at a court house, I only just found it again: 

Pray don’t find fault with the man who limps
or stumbles along the road,
unless you have worn the shoes he wears
or struggled beneath his load.
There may be tacks in his shoes that hurt,
though hidden away from view,
or the burden he bears, placed on your back
might cause you to stumble too.
Don’t sneer at the man who’s down today
unless you have felt the blow
that caused his fall or felt the shame
that only the fallen know.
You may be strong, but still the blows
that were his if dealt to you,
in the selfsame way, at the selfsame time,
might cause you to stagger too.
Don’t be too harsh with the man who sins
or pelt him with word or stone,
unless you are sure, yea, doubly sure,
that you have no sins of your own –
for you know perhaps if the tempter’s voice
should whisper as softly to you
as it did to him when he went astray,
it might cause you to stumble too. 

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