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Can You?

Can you coax your mind from its wandering and keep to the original oneness?

Can you cleanse your inner vision until you see nothing but the light?

Can you love people and lead them without imposing your will?

Can you deal with the most vital matters by letting events take their course?

Can you step back from you own mind and thus understand all things?

Giving birth and nourishing, having without possessing, acting with no expectations, leading and not trying to control: this is the supreme virtue.

From the Tao Te Ching as translated by Stephen Mitchell

 

 

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Just a little interlude

Being married to my man has been the most amazing awakening I have had to date and I’ve had a few in my life! He has shown me love unconditional, it is a fearless love, and one that has never caused me pain at all.  When you love and are loved without restrictions, without the fear of rejection, judgement and abandonment, all those painful lessons from the past can be healed. As I am finding out.

Love Aurora

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Judgement!

     
“We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It’s one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it’s another to think that yours is the only path.”

How many times have you been told by people who think they are trying to help you, ” if you only did some exercise you would feel better” or “if you only ate healthy like I do you will be fine” etc etc. Having a chronic health condition, especially one that involves pain and debilitating fatigue is hard enough, but when you feel judged because others think they know what is best for you, this simply shows their ignorance, not their want to help you, not their need to support you, simply their lack of compassion and understanding. These people seem to like to find fault in what you’re doing like there is a reward for it.

When I finally worked out for myself that I had PCOS, I decided I had to figure out what would heal MY body to achieve a pregnancy, not what the Doctors thought would help, ie simply lose weight and you can read what I did to do that in my PCOS story part 2. as it is not about losing weight but how you heal yourself.

Once more I am faced with some health issues that I again have diagnosed myself, and now I find the Drs even less understanding as I just turned 49 and they think I will soon enter menopause so, meh who cares! However my PCOS is slowing killing me and once again I have to go within to heal myself. I strongly believe its not about losing weight or eating just raw vegetables that heals us, I believe it is a mind, body and soul project.
So….

I’m going on a journey!

That’s right I am off on a journey, to a really exciting place, where spiritual enlightenment will be deepened and childhood issues will be healed. It’s a wonderful warm place, where I feel comfortable every time I visit and the host makes me feel loved unconditionally.

I am going to visit ME.

Yes that’s right I’m sure some of you have been there before, it’s a magical place and I can’t wait to go. It’s been calling me for a while now, and of course I kept putting it off, waiting till I had enough time or finished my last reading, but my body grew tired and developed symptoms that I could no longer put off. I believe there is only one way to heal my body and that is by listening to it. Doctors wanted to give me medications but I know my body does not like that and just as I healed myself once before I will again, so I am finally going….

And when I return from ME I hope to be able to share my experience with YOU! 

Thank you to my wonderful support team Bill, Jean and my soul sister Steph and of course my amazing husband who has shown me that he loves me whether I am fat, thin, sick or well!

That is what true love is about, not judgement!

Lots of love always 

Aurora

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The Power of Words

I really love this wonderful short film illustrating the power your words have on creating your reality and how changing them can truly change your life.

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Season or Reason

Reason, Season, or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

— Unknown

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Our Deepest Fear

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Marianne Williamson

I love this saying and I was  quite surprised that it was written for Nelson Mandela by Marianne Williamson, It speaks volumes about how we have so much power inside us to be what ever we want to be but that we scare ourselves let the fear stop us. And if we just believe we can be what ever we want to be, then we can and will.  And have every right to be!

 

That’s my thought on it anyway 🙂

 

Aurora

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Fighting My PCOS Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome Part 1

**Please note I am very graphic with my details in this blog**


When I was young about 15 I  suffered with heavy periods and mind numbing cramps when I had my period, so, as they do, I was put on the pill, that lasted all of about a month, I felt so ill I went off it and forgot about it, learning to deal with the pain instead, using hot packs and a Panadol.

As I got older, around 17 -19 I had horrible pains, which I would later learn through my own investigations was Mittelschmerz, lower abdominal pain that occurs in women at or around the time of an egg is released from the ovaries (ovulation). However I was told it was stress and to just relax and when that didn’t help and I actually passed out from the pain one day, I has in hospital having my appendix out!  That was the “diagnosis”

I continued to have pain and as I also had undiagnosed Fibromyalgia, I wasn’t sure half the time where the pain was coming from, I simply hurt all over and now I was developing new symptoms, hemorrhaging, massive clots and just feeling sick all the time, doctor after doctor would see me and send me away with new medications, which never worked and only made things worse, I was diagnosed with the same banner they put people in when they fit into the “too hard basket” depression! I had never had a depressed day in my life so I refused to believe it and also refused to take the anti-depressants they were trying to get me to take.

I went on about my life, got married and worked, usually with a lot of pain, but I just thought I was lazy and so I pushed through, I started to gain weight around 19, being told now that THIS was what the problem was, I needed to lose weight and all my problems would go away, I hasten to add I wasn’t even overweight, merely well-developed and curvaceous, however the weight did continue to pile on and then all of a sudden I missed several periods, I would go over a year with no period at all, “lose weight, you’ll be right” was all I was told, so I did, I lost weight and now my periods returned with a vengeance, back to the hemorrhaging, massive clots and just feeling sick all the time, now I was passing hard polyps and in and out of hospital having Dilation (or dilatation) and curettage (D&C) they would find large polyps and remove them then I would go home and nothing would change.

One day after D&C I was recovering in the hospital when I felt this horrible pain in my stomach, as I had put up with so much pain for so many years I just laid there, when the nurse came in I asked her for some pain relief, “you don’t look like someone in pain” she said, I rolled around in pain for a while then felt so sick I was on my way to the bathroom when I felt one of those horrible gushes and onto the floor was blood and a large polyp, when I pressed the button and the nurse came in she looked at me, looked at the floor and said “oh my you must have been in a lot of pain” duh!!

The doctor told me there wasn’t much to report and to go home, I did, and I continued on the cycle of heavy periods and no periods. Not game enough to continue seeing a doctor or telling anyone how bad I felt, I simply continued on.

After many years of this roller coaster of pain, hemorrhaging, anaemia, fatigue and sheer frustration, I wanted to get pregnant, but by now I was not even having a period, at all again!!. I was not coping at all well, especially when the doctors told me I would never be able to conceive due to the lack of ovulation.

To be continued…………

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Just because you cant see the wind….

“Just because you cant see the wind, doesn’t mean it does not exist” Aurora T

I have been asked what the meaning is behind this quote and here is the answer..

I felt it covered everything I do and I believe in, Mind, Body and Soul.

Mind: I believe that what we think we attract, so even though we can’t see the energetic level these thoughts vibrate on, sooner or later you will know it, as you will attract those things into your life.

Body: As I suffer from illness’ that can’t be seen as such, like a broken leg can be seen when it is plastered, it doesn’t mean that it isn’t real. I have learnt to never judge people unless I know the facts and this has come about from being judged myself when I have needed to wear sunglasses in a bright shopping center for example as I have had a raging migraine and no one to go to the shops for me, and countless times people have said to me “you don’t look sick”

Soul: I can get information from the other side, and I feel things about people, why? I don’t know, I see it as a gift and I use it wisely, however I can’t see it, but it does exist.

And that is where the quote comes from, I use it, I believe in it and I love it!
Aurora T

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