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Fighting My PCOS Poly Cystic Ovarian Part 3

Please start with Part 1 and Part 2

I found it harder to continue to be healthy whilst pregnant with my second child, I craved so many bad things and it was a really rough pregnancy, I had a toddler, no family support and I suffered from bad morning sickness and basically felt sick through the whole pregnancy. The birth was normal and I gave birth to my second beautiful daughter.

So here I am now with two beautiful daughters, my eldest daughter was 22 months and of course my new born baby girl. but I was so sick, I still had a lot of pain and my postpartum bleeding just wouldn’t stop. I was finding it hard to breast feed, look after my youngest daughter and maintain a house being so tired and in so much pain, with no support at all.

I was admitted to hospital about a week after the birth and they ran so many tests and found nothing, now remember I am still un diagnosed with PCOS or Fibromyalgia. I was told there was no other diagnosis they could give me but postpartum depression.

The D word! Oh how I hate the D word, its like when theres nowhere for them to go that’s where they head.

Well that didn’t wash with me so I went to my Gynaecologist for my 6 week check up and I was still bleeding heavily, he ran more tests and now I had become anaemic and was told to go home, relax and take some iron tablets and the bleeding should settle down.

It didn’t. 3 months had passed now and I was still haemorrhaging, I was struggling so much, I was so fatigued by now, so they checked my iron levels again and they were still low, I was trying express how hard this was being in pain, bleeding non stop and trying to cope with every day life, so off I went on a merry go round of Doctors and Specialist to try and find out what was wrong with me.

This just went on and on and on, no one listening to why I was feeling so sick and in pain, no one wanting to do anything to stop this haemorrhaging which had now been constant for 6 months.

I went to my naturopath who told me I needed to see Dr Ian Buttfield a specialist physician who specialised in Chronic Fatigue.

He diagnosed me with CFS/ME and put me onto vitamin b12 injections, some valium to help with the pain and basically sent me on my way. with a diagnosis but still in pain, bleeding and unable to cope. Back then the pain wasn’t even relevant to a CFS/ME diagnosis, so I was still being seen as a malingerer and a lazy depressed mother who needed to buck up her ideas and well basically eat better.

I was now finding it even harder to lose the weight I had gained whilst pregnant, what with the un diagnosed PCOS and the pain and fatigue not to mention the copious amounts of blood gushing from my body for over 9 months now.

That seemed to be their answer to all of this though, lose weight and poof all your ails will be gone.

So through the pain, fatigue etc I tried ohhhh god knows I tried to lose weight but it would not happen. You would think having a 2 year old and a 9 month old to run after would help? I ran their kindergarten groups and went to every single Bananas in Pyjamas concert that came to town, every Wiggles concert, and anything else that would bring a smile to their faces.

But I was dying inside. I had so much pain and fatigue, I had made so many visits to my gynaecologist who admitted me for numerous dilatation and curettage (D&C) procedures, I was constantly in hospital but nothing would stop the bleeding. The next course of action was to try me on all sorts of hormone patches and pills and he made me feel like I was making a fuss about nothing, so did my husband at the time and my family, I guess if you have never haemorrhaged for 18 months non stop then you have no idea what its like? I asked my gynaecologist for a hysterectomy and he wasn’t happy about it, he didn’t think it would help, so off I went home again trying to get this bleeding to stop, I saw acupuncturists, Chinese herbalist, naturopaths but nothing would help. I had had enough!

After a heart breaking few weeks of deliberation I needed to make a decision. I wasn’t sure I wanted more children given my state of health and after all I went through to have children, to now think about removing my uterus, it was a hard decision to make but I had no choice so after 18 months of constant haemorrhaging, trying all sorts of hormone patches and hormonal pills, numerous curettes I said to the Gynaecologist HELP ME! I begged him please you HAVE to take this out, its the only way to stop it! PLEASE!

I had my partial hysterectomy in 1998, and when the specialist came to see me, he told me these words that still haunt me

“you are so lucky we got it out now, you had cystic hyperplasia – your uterus was pre cancerous”

and then these words – words I had been waiting to hear for 25 years

“you also have Poly Cystic Ovaries” “they were so large it was too dangerous to remove them they were adhered to your pelvic artery” “they were so big I took a photo for a book I am co author on, here is the photo”

There they were, my ovaries – the things that were slowly killing me, still inside me, still poly cystic and still causing me health issues, but as is the usual practise of the medical profession, they removed the symptoms and left the problem.

Great! so now i still have them and now what?

“theres not a lot we can do about them” see you in 6 weeks! bye!

The bleeding had stopped and I was feeling a lot better, but this was not the end of my struggle with PCOS, not by a long shot!

My ovaries would continue to cause massive issues including 3, 10cm growths.

To be continued..

Aurora xx

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And the healing continues

Hi Everyone,

I thought I would pop in and just give a brief update as I haven’t been around much lately.

My last post was about my own healing journey and how I was going to a wonderful place inside myself to do some inner work – well all I can say is once you step inside there you discover an awful lot about yourself.

Not that I didn’t already know this or been there before, but this journey has been particularly long and arduous and I have certainly met some interesting characters along the way, some who have shocked me, some who have helped me and some who have totally baffled me.

Yet each of them have enriched my journey immensely and enlightened my path even with their venom or uncaring nature. So for that I thank them.

I decided to give the Dr’s a miss and heal myself and the most amazing thing happened, I developed a small lump on my stomach which grew rapidly and developed into the most painful expericence I had encountered.

I had some burning sensation on the skin on my stomach, as I felt it I noticed a lump it was quite big about the size of a 50 cent piece, it wasn’t sore so I left it, thinking it was just a cyst or boil or something….but it had a few edges to it. Later that night I had what felt like an ovarian cyst burst, then the lump began to grow and became painful beyond belief I was in agony……I left it hoping it would go away ( I hate drs and of course drugs) by the next morning it was the size of the palm of my hand, red blistery and very nasty….by this time I couldn’t walk as it was in a position that it was pressing on my leg as I walked it was so big…so I waited and called a locum, he told me I needed to go to emergency ASAP and have IV antibiotics…..I wasn’t happy, I have a fear of hospitals and put it off as much as I could, but by now it was red and angry and was yellow and black and looked like I was about to give birth to an alien! So in absolute agony and tears I got down the stairs and we went to emergency. We waited hours and hubby said by now I was looking yellow around my eyes and mouth, I was admitted and given an IV antibiotic. I am highly allergic to pretty much all drugs so I had bad reactions to two of them and by the next morning it was even bigger it was now the size of my whole hand and poked out about as big as my fist.
I was admitted by a surgeon to the hospital, I’d been in ER all that night, as I was sitting up to get into the wheelchair it ruptured, I saw blood etc all over the bed….It was about 7am….I went to my room and hoped it would all be ok now and I could avoid surgery, but I was told I still needed it….they finally took me into theatre at 8.45pm that night.

The doctor said he cut something out he’s never seen before, but by the next morning I was feeling so much better, not only pain wise but this horrible fatigue and fever and aching I’ve had for sooo long had gone….

Now I’m wondering what on earth it was and if I’ve had something brewing for years?

I went home with the best carer ever, my hubby, who never left my side and was an amazing support.

I had a gapping hole in my tummy that needs to heal now and had to wash and pack it at home and was feeling better, however 3months later I still have a hole that is healing and that is where my other journey began

Being bed ridden for so long I was going crazy, but I didn’t have the energy to do much else, so I decided to use the internet to keep my creativity alive.

This is where the fun began – albeit tedious and emotional.

To be continued

Aurora

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Judgement!

     
“We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It’s one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it’s another to think that yours is the only path.”

How many times have you been told by people who think they are trying to help you, ” if you only did some exercise you would feel better” or “if you only ate healthy like I do you will be fine” etc etc. Having a chronic health condition, especially one that involves pain and debilitating fatigue is hard enough, but when you feel judged because others think they know what is best for you, this simply shows their ignorance, not their want to help you, not their need to support you, simply their lack of compassion and understanding. These people seem to like to find fault in what you’re doing like there is a reward for it.

When I finally worked out for myself that I had PCOS, I decided I had to figure out what would heal MY body to achieve a pregnancy, not what the Doctors thought would help, ie simply lose weight and you can read what I did to do that in my PCOS story part 2. as it is not about losing weight but how you heal yourself.

Once more I am faced with some health issues that I again have diagnosed myself, and now I find the Drs even less understanding as I just turned 49 and they think I will soon enter menopause so, meh who cares! However my PCOS is slowing killing me and once again I have to go within to heal myself. I strongly believe its not about losing weight or eating just raw vegetables that heals us, I believe it is a mind, body and soul project.
So….

I’m going on a journey!

That’s right I am off on a journey, to a really exciting place, where spiritual enlightenment will be deepened and childhood issues will be healed. It’s a wonderful warm place, where I feel comfortable every time I visit and the host makes me feel loved unconditionally.

I am going to visit ME.

Yes that’s right I’m sure some of you have been there before, it’s a magical place and I can’t wait to go. It’s been calling me for a while now, and of course I kept putting it off, waiting till I had enough time or finished my last reading, but my body grew tired and developed symptoms that I could no longer put off. I believe there is only one way to heal my body and that is by listening to it. Doctors wanted to give me medications but I know my body does not like that and just as I healed myself once before I will again, so I am finally going….

And when I return from ME I hope to be able to share my experience with YOU! 

Thank you to my wonderful support team Bill, Jean and my soul sister Steph and of course my amazing husband who has shown me that he loves me whether I am fat, thin, sick or well!

That is what true love is about, not judgement!

Lots of love always 

Aurora

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Chakras, how balanced are yours?

Hi everyone, I have been AWOL for a little while as I was using all my energy to heal my own cold weather woes, the dreaded lurgey!

So it made me think about balancing myself to be able to get back into helping people again and the best way I find to do this is to balance my Chakras.

The word ‘Chakra’ is derived from the Sanskrit word meaning ‘wheel’. If we were able to see Chakras we would observe a wheel of energy continuously revolving or rotating. Each chakra rotates at a different speed and vibration and also relates to different areas in the body and resonates with colour and sound.

One of the reasons that many people fall ill is because their chakras become out of alignment, they are ‘imbalanced’ or there are blockages which restrict the free flow of the body’s energy.

Below is some basic information on the location, colours and effects of the Chakras. They are of course much more complex and the colours can vary greatly.

There are 7 Major Chakras;

1/Root Chakra
The Root Chakra is located at the base of the spine (pubic bone) and is red in color. The Root Chakra is associated with physical security and safety, money, basic needs for yourself and loved ones, and self-esteem. Fears or obsessions relating to physical needs and safety can put the Root Chakra out of balance. An unbalanced Root Chakra often manifests as physical problems related to reproductive organs and sexual vitality and problems with the lower back, hips, and legs.

2/Sacral Chakra
The Sacral Chakra is located just below the naval and is orange in color. The Sacral Chakra is associated with physical pleasures, confidence, addictions, appearance, and relationships with others. Fears or obsessions relating to physical pleasures and what others think of you can put the Sacral Chakra out of balance. An unbalanced Sacral Chakra often manifests as physical problems related to the lymphatic system, lower intestines and digestive system.

3/Solar Plexus
Chakra The Solar Plexus Chakra is located just above the naval and is yellow in color. The Solar Plexus Chakra is associated with personal power, and control of yourself or others. Fears or obsessions relating to control and power can put the Solar Plexus Chakra out of balance. An unbalanced Solar Plexus Chakra often manifests as physical problems related to digestive difficulties, liver problems, and food allergies.

4/Heart Chakra
The Heart Chakra is located in the middle of the chest and is green in colour although pink is often also associated with the Heart Chakra and the colour I prefer to use. The Heart Chakra is associated with love, relationships, attachments, forgiveness and emotions. Fears or obsessions relating to love and relationships, or the need to forgive others or yourself can put the Heart Chakra out of balance. An unbalanced Heart Chakra often manifests as physical problems related to the heart, circulatory and respiratory system.

5/Throat Chakra
The Throat Chakra is located at the throat and is light or dark blue in color. The Throat Chakra is associated with communication and creativity. Fears or obsessions relating to communicating and speaking your truth can put the Throat Chakra out of balance. An unbalanced Throat Chakra often manifests as physical problems related to back pain, ear infections, throat irritations, skin irritations or thyroid problems.

6/Third Eye/Brow Chakra
The Third Eye or Brow Chakra is located on the forehead and is Indigo in colour. The Third Eye Chakra is associated with intuition, dreaming, and beliefs. Fears or obsessions about beliefs or trusting your intuition can put the Third Eye Chakra out of balance. An unbalanced Third Eye Chakra often manifests as physical problems related to headaches, vision or dulled senses.

7/Crown Chakra
The Crown Chakra is located on the top of the head and is purple or violet however I have seen it as white or even golden. The Crown Chakra is associated with knowledge, understanding, wisdom and connection to the Source. Fears or obsessions about understanding and compassion can put the Crown Chakra out of balance. An unbalanced Crown Chakra often manifests as physical problems related to our head and nervous system, or as depression or a feeling of lack of purpose. It is important to open this one as it is the Chakra through which you obtain the highest understanding and the highest knowledge.

To help awaken and unblock your Chakras you can use: Meditation, guided visualisation, energy work. I like to use drum healing, crystals and MAP Healing. During any crystal healing session all Chakras should be be open to help them all move freely again.

If you would like to book a Chakra Healing please click HERE

Love Aurora xx

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New Web Site is up and running!!

After many many months of hard work from both myself and MrD, the new web site is up and running and I am so proud of it.

I decided to change the whole look of the web site for a few reasons and after a lot of thinking and comunicating with my clients and friends.

I have a lot of followers and clients whom due to illness are much more comfortable using an iPhone or iPad or other mobile device which wouldn’t load the flash on the old web page, also I wanted to make it user friendly for visually impaired people as well, I tried really hard to accomodate every ones needs and I hope I have succeeded!

Thank you to everyone for your patience.

The new web site can be found HERE

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Taking part in the 15 Question Interview Series.

I was asked by Rochelle Stone of Barefoot Basics if I would be interested in being interviewed for her 15 Part Interview Series. which can be found  HERE

If you are having trouble accessing that then I have reposted it here.

  1. Who?

 

Aurora T  –  The Path Beyond


2.     What?

 

I am an intuitive healer, medium, and metaphysical teacher. Spiritual Events Co-ordinator and Mum.


3. Where?

 

I live and work on the beautiful Sunshine Coast, Queensland, but my services take me all around the world and I use the internet to assist with this.

 

4.  What book changed your life?

 

I don’t think any one book has individually changed my life, but my dad being an avid spiritual adventurer passed on many books – the one that impacted me the most is entitled “Secrets about Life Every Woman Should Know…Ten Principles For Spiritual and Emotional Fulfilment”, by Barbara De Angelis. It is a very enlightening book which resonated well with me and I got a lot from it.

5.    Favourite travel destination?

 

The Greek Isles because I love the energetic flow of the colours from the buildings blending with the glorious colours of the ocean and the food and wine is amazing, along with the hospitality of the local people.

 

6.     Tell us a bit about you and your background

 

I’m a mother of two teenage daughters who was told that due to my Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) I would never have children and who coped bringing them up as a single mother with Fibromyalgia (FMS) and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS), helping me to begin my Spiritual journey around 15 years ago in an effort to heal my body and connect with my inner spirit. I now work on bringing this awareness to others, drawing on my own experiences, understanding the pain my clients are in and also being aware of their own personal limitations, which is extremely important when working with people with chronic pain.

 

7.   What inspired you to start your own business?

 

I have always been a free thinker and have never really conformed to others’ belief systems, so it made sense to do it on my own. I needed to be able to be free to express my spirituality and the healing techniques that I discovered in my own way and to the people that I felt needed my help.

 

8.   What difference has being in business for yourself made in your life?

 

Owning and running my own business is very rewarding on many levels, it has given me the freedom to reach people I would never have met here in Australia and around the world, and help them to heal themselves. It has been rewarding in the way I can work it around my illness and stop when I need to. Being a single mother it also helped me to raise my daughters in a way I wouldn’t have been able to. It also gives me the freedom of expression and creativity to develop on my own web page and other media resources, which I love.

 

9.   What have been your biggest turning points in life and how did you manage these moments so that they shaped you rather than break you?

 

My biggest turning point was leaving my marriage with two young children and starting a new beginning, my path to healing – it was very hard and at times it did feel as though it would break me but it only made me stronger, I was extremely unwell from the stress and could have gone under, but I chose to be strong for myself and my girls and those who needed my help, this strength is what I like to impart onto my client and to give them the knowledge that everything they need to heal them is inside themselves. It was a long and enlightening journey.

The second biggest turning point was moving forward after the loss of my father to cancer who was, is and continues to be my spiritual inspiration and guide, inspiring me to develop my new business The Path Beyond.

 

10.   What is your greatest piece of advice that you would give others in business?

 

Be yourself! You can’t carry off anything else for too long.

 

11.   What have you found to be the most effective way to promote your business?

 

In my own personal experience, I have found that word of mouth from others who have interacted with you and dealt with you is the best way to gain new clients. Apart from that, I find the internet helps me to connect with people in different parts of the world, so I use it to its full advantage.

 

12.   What has been your greatest success to date in life and business?

 

Achieving two successful pregnancies with PCOS. Meeting the man I am about to marry who has also been by my side and supported me in the building of my new project The Path Beyond.

 

13.   What one piece of advice would you share with your younger self?

 

Listen to that inner voice it will never lead you astray and Always look after number one!

 

14.  You have created the opportunity to be the catalyst of positive change in the life of others, what change has this inspired within you as a person?

 

I have always been an extremely empathic person and have never judged anyone for the choices they have made and I hope my awareness can help others to think before judging.

 

15.   Lastly, what’s next?

 

I am in the process of building a new web page to be able to enhance the ability to bring my services to people all around the world, I am currently working on new formats to be able to bring my teaching online in an interactive way, as well as my readings and healings. This is very exciting and I love the creative flair I am discovering inside me.

 

Thank you to Rochelle for allowing me to take part in her very successful series.

 



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Fighting My PCOS Poly Cystic Ovarian Part 2

Thank you to everyone for your wonderful support and feedback for Part 1. which can be found HERE

It is nice to know that I can reach out to others out there who are also dealing with this syndrome

I will continue where I left off, trying to conceive….

By this time I was frustrated at not being heard, I was ready to give up work and was now trying to fall pregnant. I was told by the doctors that I would never be able to have children because I was not ovulating and they didn’t know why, but being stubborn as I am I wasn’t going to take that for an answer, so I told him I would like to try and was put on all sorts of hormone replacements and hormone patches to try and induce ovulation, then I would haemorrhage and then go off them and have no period. I was still having numerous D&C’s to remove polyps and then they put me on Clomid to try and bring on ovulation and I had to drive an hour every morning to have blood tests to check and monitor my hormone levels – I was living in the country and I didn’t have this facility close by.

The Clomid made me so ill, I was having hot flushes, dizziness, vomiting and generally feeling very unwell. But hey, I was ovulating and producing 6-7 eggs a cycle.

The exhaustion coupled with the still undiagnosed fibromyalgia was only compounding the problem but I continued to do it for quite a few months. Then one day they called me into the office and told me that this was not going to work for me and that I needed to stop and they were refusing me any further treatment, I was not happy. So I went to the head of the hospital and said they are denying me the right to continue to try and  fall pregnant, to which he replied ..”we don’t have the resources to continue with someone who is a lost cause…”. I was shocked by this and was still not going to take NO for an answer. I left in tears, went home and pondered on it quite deeply and thought – I am going to have to do this on my own – so I contacted the head of the hospital again and told him he could not deny me blood tests and I wanted the tests to monitor my hormone levels, that I didn’t require any other treatment or any doctors to follow me up, all I want is the blood tests to which he agreed.

So now what do I do? I was basically told I was infertile, no one wanted to help me, no one had a diagnosis as to why I wasn’t able to conceive..now what?

That was when I decided I needed to go within and truly connect with my inner self and work out why was this happening, what was the cause of why I wasn’t getting pregnant. Was it fear? Was it hormonal? Was it my body?, So was it physical, emotional or spiritual?

I wanted to have a baby, so I knew it wasn’t emotional, I knew that spiritually it was time for me to have a child so I knew it wasn’t spiritual so then I realised it was a physical thing.  I had gained a fair amount of weight by this time, with the stress and the pain and the rampant hormonal changes and this was what they were blaming it all on – weight gain – not why I would be gaining weight, but purely that overweight=inability to conceive! Fobbing me off as just another overweight patient who couldn’t  fall pregnant and it was heartbreaking.

I wasn’t about to go on a strict diet and lose a few pounds so they could then put me back onto the cycle of hormone replacement and not actually work out what the underlying problem was, I just wasn’t going to do it.

I then went on a very long and costly journey of natural therapists and herbalists, Chinese medicine and iridologists, all trying to help but never quite getting it right. Everyone was always focusing on losing weight NOT why I was gaining weight in the first place…a hormonal imbalance! Why wasn’t anyone listening? I had read a bit about PCOS by this time and had almost self diagnosed myself but no one would listen enough to point me to a specialist to get a proper diagnosis.

So I went to the local library and read every book I could on trying to conceive naturally and I believe that when you look at these things you need to look at what resonates with you and take that information and leave the rest aside.  So I chose some aromatherapy books, some herbal books, some books on conception and on hormonal issues.  As I am a bit of a “flicker”, I would flick through and see what I made a connection with and take that on board and move on to a new book, I read and read book after book and I decided that what I needed to do was what was right for me.

I needed to sort out my hormone problem myself and I wasn’t about to go on a diet, I wasn’t about to go on anything too strict, but I totally changed everything I was doing. I gave up work so I wasn’t stressed any more, I eliminated all processed food out of my diet – I didn’t go crazy, I just made everything from scratch and went as organic and I could and that was mainly so I could detox my body.  I took some supplements which I don’t think really helped but didn’t hurt either, I did drink raspberry leaf tea and I think that helped to prepare  my uterus lining as I wasn’t ovulating and when I was I was haemorrhaging so I needed to calm it down and  I felt the raspberry leave tea helped that. The other thing I did was get rose geranium and chamomile oils and rubbed them on my stomach every day, it had a very calming effect. I was feeling very calm and was now losing weight, I started to meditate and exercised slowly as I still had undiagnosed fibromyalgia, so I had to learn what worked for me and what didn’t.

After a little while I ovulated! I knew when I had ovulated as I would get such intense pain – I think with PCOS you do get more pain as the egg follicle is a lot more dense and has quite a hard membrane to come out of so it is quite painful, so I had to continue on this path and now I was taking my temperature every morning waiting for it to spike and checking out my cervical mucus and this was all the knowledge from reading the books I had found, I was still going to have my blood monitored but not as often and I had to continue on this healthy path.

The first time that I decided to try it all out when my temperature had spiked, I was pregnant!

I went to the doctors to confirm and sure enough the so called impossible had happened, I was pregnant!  I went to the hospital knowing full well I was pregnant but needing the blood test anyway and they confirmed.  A few weeks later I got a congratulations letter from the head of the IVF department asking me if I would like to come and talk to other overweight women and how losing weight helped me to fall pregnant, when I replied that it was NOT losing weight but how I did it that mattered, I never heard back.

I went on to have a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby girl.

I continued to live a healthy life style and conceived my second daughter 18 months later, again, unaided by drugs and unhelpful doctors.

But I still had undiagnosed PCOS which would flare up again putting me in and out of hospital for the next few years and lead to what could have been a deadly diagnosis…

To Be Continued………..

 

 

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