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I actually am awesome!

Right? we all are in our own unique way, it’s just most of us, me included, sometimes fail to see just how awesome we really are.

I have a lot to be grateful for, I have a lot of people from my childhood and my past who I have to thank, simply for being a part of my life, whether they were in it for a long time, a short time, a happy time or a sad time, they all taught me something and for that I am grateful.

I am grateful for being left in the hospital at the age of 6, terrified, having my tonsils out, while I comforted the little girl who waited for her parents to arrive, with no visit from my parents. From that I learnt how compassionate a person I am and when they left me at Kindergarten on my first day and were so late to pick me up that I never wanted to return again, for those and so many other experiences of abandonment I am entirely grateful, for I learnt how to be a fantastically loving and caring mother to my own children.

I am grateful to my sister who teased and taunted me my whole childhood that she was better than me as (she said) I was fat and unhealthy so I would never be as good as her and has now judged me as being fat and unhealthy without even knowing or asking about my health issues; you know why I am grateful to her? Because of her I do not judge other people, or make them feel bad about themselves.

I am grateful for having a family whose ideals are that unless you eat and do the same things that they do then you will never be acceptable or as healthy as they are, from this I am always thankful that I know I never force my beliefs onto others, and I practice being practical not radical.

I am forever grateful that I met and married my ex husband, who made my life a living hell when we mutually decided to separate, even though he stalked me and almost broke me, I am eternally grateful to have had him in my life because I have two beautiful daughters who are as strong and independent as I had to learn to be to get through that time in my life.

I am grateful to my dad for being a searcher, for always seeking the answers to lifes big questions, because with out his need for spiritual understanding I wouldn’t have found my own.

I am grateful for my two ex best friends who lied and hurt me beyond belief, because they taught me that theirs was not a true friendship and to never settle for that again and so when I met my best friend Dawn, who hugged me tight and cried with me at my dad’s funeral and flew interstate to be with me on my wedding day in 2011, I knew that I had met a true friend.

I am grateful to my mum for never believing in me, because even though she made me believe I would never be anything, she taught me that she was oohhh so wrong.

I am grateful for the large houses that I struggled to pay for when I was single and raising my two daughters, because it has made me appreciate the cosy home I now own, mortgage free, with my husband. It’s perfect.

I am grateful for meeting a lady who battled cancer with the biggest smile on her face and won. Every day I admire her and rejoice in the fact that she is well and can share her life with me, when she sent me the picture below and told me it reminded her of me, I realised that maybe she was just as grateful to have me in her life as well.

I am eternally and wholeheartedly grateful for the abusive partners I have had in my life, the relationships that would push my boundaries beyond their limits and test me to he point of exhaustion, because they taught me how to set those boundaries and never accept another person into my life who showed me no respect and how to be strong enough to remove anyone from my life who couldn’t be totally accepting and respectful.

Which brings me to the person who inspired this post, my husband, the only person who has come into my life thus far, who has shown me unconditional love, has never judged me, allows me to be free to be myself and grow and shows me every day how much he loves me. He is truly a spirit that I made a soul agreement to meet in this life time and if I had to suffer all that I did in the past to allow him into my life, then I am ever so grateful, I love him with my whole heart and soul.

The other day he walked into the room where I was sitting and sat down next to me and kissed me gently and said “You are so amazing, I am so proud that you are my wife, never forget how amazing you are”. He kissed me gently again and went to walk away then he turned back and said, “and never give up”.

He sees every day the struggle I go through, the pain – emotional and physical – that I deal with and every day he makes me feel like I am the most awesome woman he has ever met. So who am I to not believe him and who am I not to believe in me!

I am awesome!

Gratitude

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Just a little interlude

Being married to my man has been the most amazing awakening I have had to date and I’ve had a few in my life! He has shown me love unconditional, it is a fearless love, and one that has never caused me pain at all.  When you love and are loved without restrictions, without the fear of rejection, judgement and abandonment, all those painful lessons from the past can be healed. As I am finding out.

Love Aurora

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I Promise Myself.. by Christian D. Larson

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.

To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.

To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.

To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.

To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

Christian D. Larson

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Lost and Found

About a week ago Mr D was heading to the kitchen to make a cup of tea and as he walked through the door I saw a spirit above his head.  In need of a rest I tried to ignore it but it was rather persistent. I knew it was for Mr D and asked what it needed to tell me, all I could get was the name “pet”….I was rather perplexed by this and began to ask if it was a name of a person and could they elaborate a bit, I knew the spirit was Mr D’s grandmother as this was coming through very strongly.  As I asked for more information around “pet” a man came in very assertively and told her to stop now. That was the clarification I needed to know it was indeed Mr D’s grandmother as his grandfather was quite a strong man who was in control.

When he returned with my cup of tea I asked him if he knew of someone called “pet” or someone with a short sharp name like that, he racked his brains for ages, trying to remember past relatives and could come up with a few names that matched like “Thyp” and “Pat” but I didn’t feel these were right.

The next time we spoke to Mr D’s mum we asked her and she confirmed the information about her father being the one to try and stop the information coming through and she told us she would have a think about it and let us know.

A few days later I woke up from a dream, I had dreamt that a man was showing me a cat draped over his arms, it was fluffy and very peaceful looking, I asked if it was OK, he told me that the cat had died, that it was a cat that used to be in a classroom with lots of children and that the teacher had discovered it when she went in that morning.

That night we received a text message saying that Mr D’s mums beloved cat that she had for more than 15 years had passed away. It was at that time that I realised that her mother was here to let her know it was OK as she was going to help during this time and that “pet” was refering to the pet cat.

She then went on to tell us through her tears that she was about to go to the school, where she reads to children and that would make her feel better. We then realised what the dream was about.

It gave a lot of comfort to the family and also to me to know that on the other side, they help not only us to pass over smoothly but our furry friends as well.

Aurora T xx

 

 

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The Power of Words

I really love this wonderful short film illustrating the power your words have on creating your reality and how changing them can truly change your life.

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Season or Reason

Reason, Season, or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

— Unknown

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