I thought I would pop in and just give a brief update as I haven’t been around much lately.
My last post was about my own healing journey and how I was going to a wonderful place inside myself to do some inner work – well all I can say is once you step inside there you discover an awful lot about yourself.
Not that I didn’t already know this or been there before, but this journey has been particularly long and arduous and I have certainly met some interesting characters along the way, some who have shocked me, some who have helped me and some who have totally baffled me.
Yet each of them have enriched my journey immensely and enlightened my path even with their venom or uncaring nature. So for that I thank them.
I decided to give the Dr’s a miss and heal myself and the most amazing thing happened, I developed a small lump on my stomach which grew rapidly and developed into the most painful expericence I had encountered.
I had some burning sensation on the skin on my stomach, as I felt it I noticed a lump it was quite big about the size of a 50 cent piece, it wasn’t sore so I left it, thinking it was just a cyst or boil or something….but it had a few edges to it. Later that night I had what felt like an ovarian cyst burst, then the lump began to grow and became painful beyond belief I was in agony……I left it hoping it would go away ( I hate drs and of course drugs) by the next morning it was the size of the palm of my hand, red blistery and very nasty….by this time I couldn’t walk as it was in a position that it was pressing on my leg as I walked it was so big…so I waited and called a locum, he told me I needed to go to emergency ASAP and have IV antibiotics…..I wasn’t happy, I have a fear of hospitals and put it off as much as I could, but by now it was red and angry and was yellow and black and looked like I was about to give birth to an alien! So in absolute agony and tears I got down the stairs and we went to emergency. We waited hours and hubby said by now I was looking yellow around my eyes and mouth, I was admitted and given an IV antibiotic. I am highly allergic to pretty much all drugs so I had bad reactions to two of them and by the next morning it was even bigger it was now the size of my whole hand and poked out about as big as my fist.
I was admitted by a surgeon to the hospital, I’d been in ER all that night, as I was sitting up to get into the wheelchair it ruptured, I saw blood etc all over the bed….It was about 7am….I went to my room and hoped it would all be ok now and I could avoid surgery, but I was told I still needed it….they finally took me into theatre at 8.45pm that night.
The doctor said he cut something out he’s never seen before, but by the next morning I was feeling so much better, not only pain wise but this horrible fatigue and fever and aching I’ve had for sooo long had gone….
Now I’m wondering what on earth it was and if I’ve had something brewing for years?
I went home with the best carer ever, my hubby, who never left my side and was an amazing support.
I had a gapping hole in my tummy that needs to heal now and had to wash and pack it at home and was feeling better, however 3months later I still have a hole that is healing and that is where my other journey began
Being bed ridden for so long I was going crazy, but I didn’t have the energy to do much else, so I decided to use the internet to keep my creativity alive.
This is where the fun began – albeit tedious and emotional.
To be continued