Posts by Aurora:
Period problems – ranging from no periods at all to irregular, heavy or painful periods. May be linked to difficulty in becoming pregnant due to irregular ovulation (egg release).
Excessive hair growth on the face and body (hirsutism) and/or thinning of the hair on the head (alopecia).
Dark skin patches (called acanthosis nigricans) on the back of the neck or under the armpits or in skin creases.
Problems with easy weight gain and increased upper or abdominal body fat. However, not all women with PCOS have weight problems.
What are the long-term risks?
Studies show that women with PCOS may have an increased risk of:
Diabetes – either pregnancy related or Type 2 (there is an estimated five to seven times higher risk than usual).
Higher blood pressure
Fatty liver disease
Thickening of the endometrial wall (lining of the uterus) which may increase the risk of cancer if not treated.
- I acknowledged what happened to me, as something that happened, no longer something that made me who I was – I had been sexually abused, I wasn’t sexually abused, I had been bullied, I wasn’t bullied. I had been neglected, abandoned and treated unfairly, I wasn’t now being bullied, neglected abandoned or treated unfairly. These things happened, they are not happening now and so I no longer need to hold onto them as something I “am”.
- I removed people from my life who knew those triggers and continuously jabbed them, be them family or friend, I then went on to forgive them.
- I confronted my demons and as much as she hated it, I confronted my mother about my childhood sexual abuse by her brother in law and I refused to be around this man again.
- I forgave my mother for not protecting me and accepting that it happened. I had learnt that she would one day have to deal with her own wounds from this one along with a plethora of other things she did to me which I will discuss as I unravel more of my healing journey.
- I forgave the man who did it, no I didn’t hug him and say I forgive him, I simply chose not to be a victim any longer. I could either wallow in self pity and carry emotional baggage that was making me sick, or I could simply hand that heavy bag to him and let him carry it, so I did.
- I forgave my father for the abuse he had caused when he beat me with a wooden spoon until it broke and for the put downs and shaming, before he made his own revelations and changes in his life.
- I forgave my sister for abandoning me when I was left to be sexually abused, I also forgave her for constantly belittling me and putting me down our whole lives and for judging me.
- I forgave my other sister for refusing to help me when I needed her the most, being rushed to hospital with whooping cough and asking for help to look after my children. For her lies and nastiness when things between us went haywire.
- I forgave my best friend of 30 years whose life I saved when she tried to commit suicide, then abused me along with her family and dumped me as a friend.
- I forgave all of my so called friends who judged me and left me when I was going through a painful divorce and I forgave my husband for that painful divorce and years of emotional abuse and stalking me for 10 years after we parted.
- Do I want any of these people in my life now? No I don’t and I chose not to associate with them.
- I surround myself only with people who love me on a level where they see the beauty within me and nothing less.
- I lost interest in the past, about how I was a victim of all this abuse on many levels, I stopped telling the story in victim mode.
- I told myself everyday that from my pain came my strength, and whilst that pain was real and oh so painful, it made me into the strong woman I am today and for that I am thankful.
- I spoke to my higher self, regularly, great, long, learning, loving conversations which helped me immensely and who asked me this question: “If you had a choice to go back and be born into a loving, nurturing, pain free environment, where life was grand, but you wouldn’t be who you are today, you would be someone with less strength, with lesser understanding spiritually than you have now, without the children you have now, the grandchildren and the loving partner you have now, would you change it”? “Well hell no!”, I replied, “So be grateful and be happy, you are one of the lucky ones who has learnt”.
I made an Instagram account for the Path Beyond so I could share photos easily from my phone, I often have random thoughts and I write them down on my phone so this was an easy way for me to use them as some inspiration for others.
I gathered a few followers and as I scrolled and read the posts, all I saw was quotes after repeated quotes, I pondered. Who were these people, well one, half my age offered to help heal me…not sure of what. But I’m sure her costs would have been worth it..right…?
But then, this same clueless guru, a young lady in her early 20’s, who was now a proclaimed “Master” who has clearly found her path to enlightenment at such a tender age, through selfies of her “smile” that she told everyone press like and type “yes” in her comments, if you thought she had a nice smile, posted yet another selfie and I realised that so many people step onto their path, walk it for a day or ten, then figure that’s all there is to it, they are enlightened and can go on to heal and teach others with selfies and photos of fresh fruit, oh because you must be a vegan too, this month.
I saw the same quotes posted, the same photos of how happy these people were living in what I call a life illusion, one where you post all your happiness all over social media platforms, because you are happy, right? Well not always, they want you to believe they are, so they can then suggest you purchase their E-book, or services. Then when the facade comes off, they have bad days, just like you and me, they feel sick when they get the flu, they visit the Dr for anxiety or depression, or their failed marriage, which is all hidden behind photos of them smiling with their latest plate of fresh food.
So here we are faced with people who feel inadequate, because they don’t get to go out to dinner with their husband all the time, or they are not arranging fruit into wonderfully colourful platters, or smiling for the camera with full make up and hair done every day. Well guess what? Neither are these Clueless Gurus, once their day ends or the weekend comes you better believe that they are sobbing into a bag of popcorn whilst they watch a romcom, wishing the man of their dreams would call back, instead of being at the pub with the boys and all that week of eating fruit now has them on the toilet so Pizza and Chocolate it is for dinner for them tonight.
No one is perfect, never aim to be, because once you are perfect, you will be very lonely on your way out of here, because once your lessons are learned, baby its time to go back………………So enjoy all the good and the bad and please walk your path, speak your truth, do as you preach and stop the social media rot.
I wonder how many people who share, like, and comment on how amazing a certain raw food page is, actually knows it is run by a car yard, you know, for the money, from the E-books they then feel obliged to buy, so they can also obtain this Nirvana, these Clueless Gurus claim to have found.
Liking or replying yes to a post on social media doesn’t make you an enlightened being, it makes you a sheep.
Needless to say I found an alternative way to post my inspiration and my Instagram is no longer.
Fibromyalgia is a chronic disorder characterized by widespread musculoskeletal pain, fatigue, and multiple tender points. “Tender points” refers to tenderness that occurs in precise localized areas, particularly in the neck, spine, shoulders, and hips. People with this syndrome may also experience sleep disturbances, morning stiffness, irritable bowel syndrome, anxiety, and other symptoms.
Although the cause of fibromyalgia is unknown, researchers have several theories about causes or triggers of the disorder. Some scientists believe that the syndrome may be caused by an injury or trauma. This injury may affect the central nervous system. Fibromyalgia may be associated with changes in muscle metabolism, such as decreased blood flow, causing fatigue and decreased strength. Others believe the syndrome may be triggered by an infectious agent such as a virus in susceptible people, but no such agent has been identified.
Fibromyalgia is difficult to diagnose because many of the symptoms mimic those of other disorders. The physician reviews the patient’s medical history and makes a diagnosis of fibromyalgia based on a history of chronic widespread pain that persists for more than 3 months. The American College of Rheumatology (ACR) has developed criteria for fibromyalgia that physicians can use in diagnosing the disorder. According to ACR criteria, a person is considered to have fibromyalgia if he or she has widespread pain in combination with tenderness in at least 11 of 18 specific tender point sites.
Signs and symptoms
Fibromyalgia is a chronic illness that can be debilitating for many. Fibromyalgia sufferers can experience a wide range of symptoms with varying intensities and may include:
Memory impairment and concentration
Widespread musculoskeletal aches
Soft tissue tenderness
Pain and stiffness
Irritable bowel and bladder
Headaches and migraines
Skin sensitivities and rashes
Dry eyes and mouth
Poor (brain) cognition
Ringing in the ears (tinnitus)
Restless Leg Syndrome (periodic limb movement disorder)
Raynaud’s Syndrome (freezing hands/feet)
Neurological symptoms (muscle weakness, numbness)
18 Points of Tenderness
Painful tender points are located at various places on your body and are a common characteristic of Fibromyalgia Syndrome, which can be part of the diagnostic process. Your health care provider will ask about your pain symptoms and then press on a series of anatomically-defined soft tissue body sites called “tender points.” Eleven of the 18 tender point sites must be painful when pressed in order to receive a medical diagnosis of Fibromyalgia.
While any body part can be affected, the most common sites of pain include:
Neck and Back
Shoulders and Chest
Hips and Knees
Hands and Elbow Regions
Buttocks and Pelvic Girdle
Tender points are generally superficial areas under the surface of the skin, such as the area over the elbows or shoulders. However, the tender points of these areas are usually very small, about the size of a penny. Tender points also involve localized areas of tenderness and pain around the joints, but do not involve the joint itself.
These 18 tender points will usually be highly sensitive to pressure in people with fibromyalgia as specified by the American College of Rheumatology criteria. The pain can feel like a deep bone ache, pins and needles, or a stabbing or burning pain. Muscles may feel like they have been pulled or overworked. There are times this pain is mild, others when it is so severe that it becomes unbearable. People who do not have fibromyalgia feel less tenderness when pressure is applied to these areas.
I must stress here that everyone’s fibro story and symptoms are different and we all need to respect that we each experience it differently.
Follow my own Fibro Story Here
POLYCYSTIC OVARIAN SYNDROME (PCOS)
Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, or PCOS, is a condition which occurs in five to ten percent of women of reproductive age. It is associated with a hormonal imbalance that can cause a variety of symptoms, including but not limited to:
Fortunately, with early diagnosis and proper management, these risks can be reduced.
What causes PCOS?
No one is quite sure what causes PCOS. Recent studies indicate that lifestyle, environmental and genetic factors can be involved. Sometimes it occurs in families where there is a history of PCOS, diabetes or heart disease.
How is PCOS diagnosed?
Early diagnosis is important so that your symptoms can be managed. Early diagnosis may also prevent long term health problems.
If PCOS is suspected, your doctor will ask you questions about your family history, and your own medical history, including any problems you might be having with your periods (menstruation) and ovulation. Your doctor will also order blood tests to check your hormone levels and an ultrasound to look at your ovaries.
The doctor will suspect PCOS if two of the following situations apply to you:
an ultrasound picture of your ovaries shows polycystic ovaries (PCO)*
you have a history of menstrual or ovulation problems
there are changes in your hormones (like testosterone) that cause excess facial and body hair or acne.
Your doctor will also look for signs of insulin resistance or metabolic syndrome and will also do tests to exclude or rule out other hormonal conditions.
*PCOS is not the same as polycystic ovaries (PCO). PCO only relates to how the ovaries look on an ultrasound, not the entire syndrome. Many people have the ultrasound findings alone and do not have the syndrome.
Hormonal Changes of PCOS
The ovaries and adrenal glands make androgens. Androgens are the so called ‘male’ sex hormones – such as testosterone – that are present in low levels in all women. In PCOS the ovaries either produce more androgens than normal or the body is more sensitive to these levels of testosterone. This may lead to hair growth, acne and irregular periods. It also affects ovulation (release of the egg from the ovary once a month), which may not occur regularly.
Insulin and insulin resistance
When we eat, insulin is the hormone released from the pancreas that keeps blood glucose (sugar) levels well controlled. It moves glucose from the blood to body cells to be used for energy. PCOS increases the body’s resistance to the action of insulin, so it takes higher than usual levels of insulin to let glucose into cells. This is called hyperinsulinaemia. The higher insulin levels affect your ovaries, and change the production of other hormones, such as testosterone, leading to the hormonal symptoms of PCOS.
Insulin is a growth hormone, which normally increases during times such as adolescence and pregnancy, but constant high levels can lead to too much fat in the upper body. Extra fat tissue can then have the affect of increasing the insulin resistance which will lead to even higher insulin levels, further weight gain and worsening PCOS symptoms. Not all women with PCOS are overweight, but thinner women still can have some insulin resistance.
If you have higher insulin levels it does not mean you have diabetes, as your blood sugar levels are usually still normal. However, if your body is eventually unable to create enough insulin to maintain the higher levels, diabetes can occur.
Ouch I think you got me, that dig about being a bad mother, calling me fat, telling me I am always sick, saying I am manipulating or a liar. Bam! Bam! Bam! they all hit me right where you wanted them to, right where it hurts. In those deep emotional scars from childhood.
However here’s the thing, they can only hurt if I allow them to. I once had a friend who would reply to my statements of “it’s a worry” with “only if you worry about it”. I had nowhere to go with any pity party then, I was stopped in my tracks.
But how do you stop it when it’s such an emotionally vicious attack on your self worth?
It’s easy for me to say don’t react, but those wounds are deep and potentially never leave, so if that’s the case and we always react when shot with the gun, what do we do? How do we not allow that to affect us anymore?
We can cut people out of our lives and never allow people who know those triggers and use them as a weapon to be in your life anymore, which isn’t always possible but is definitely doable.
It can only hurt you if you let it, right? Well no, it will hurt anyway, even if we don’t react right away it will seep deep into our psyche and cause some kind of issue, like passive aggressive behavior, evasive behavior, sulking, withdrawal or even anger or physical pain. that will erupt later on.
Unless we learn how to let go of the belief system that has us believing all these terrible things said about us are true, that is where the answers lay.
So let me tell you what helped me.
What’s your trigger and would you change your life to go back and not be who you are today?
If your answer is yes, then keep watching, as I take you on my healing journey.
If you would like help on your own healing journey come see me here
22/02/2012 I wrote these words on my blog
I’m going on a journey!
That’s right I am off on a journey, to a really exciting place, where spiritual enlightenment will be deepened and childhood issues will be healed. It’s a wonderful warm place, where I feel comfortable every time I visit and the host makes me feel loved unconditionally.
I am going to visit ME.
Yes that’s right I’m sure some of you have been there before, it’s a magical place and I can’t wait to go. It’s been calling me for a while now, and of course I kept putting it off, waiting till I had enough time or finished my last reading, but my body grew tired and developed symptoms that I could no longer put off. I believe there is only one way to heal my body and that is by listening to it. Doctors wanted to give me medications but I know my body does not like that and just as I healed myself once before I will again, so I am finally going….
And when I return from ME I hope to be able to share my experience with YOU!
I have finally returned and oh goodness what an amazingly insightful, long, hard, enlightening, growth filled journey it was, I had no idea when I wrote those words, just how true they were and just how deeply I would travel into ME and I will be sharing it with you so hold on tight as I share my, not so always nice and comfy healing journey, but a hard edged dive into my past, some of it brutal and painful and some of it cleansing and healing but all of it rewarding.
I will share with the hope that it might just help someone who is/has/was also suffering from a lot of old wounds. Where I confront my childhood abuse, sexual, emotional and physical, as I chose to let go of people in my life who have hurt me, even family members, where I have developed such a deeper understanding of what is on the other side, how to connect to my higher self on a level so much deeper it is overwhelming, how to listen to my body and how to heal a life time of pain and hey losing 40 kilo (almost 90 pounds) along the way was a nice side effect.
This was a holistic healing of mind body and soul or as I call it an integrative healing on an emotional, spiritual and physical level.
Listening to the voice of my soul and meeting my true, authentic self, my higher self, which in itself was an amazing experience.
More to come with this launch of my new webpage, which I have proudly created by myself, using my own unique artwork, a hidden creativity unlocked during my extensive journey, of which I am very proud and was humbly nominated as one of the best from some of over a million people who saw it live during its development.
14th May 2017
7 years ago today my dad was set free, I no longer cry because he’s not here, I smile each time he whispers in my ear, he chats to me now from the other side with guidance and love, he watches me grow and expresses his pride. My dad was a seeker, a searcher, like no other, now on his next journey with so much more to discover.
Today my husband and I were standing on the balcony looking down at our eldest cat Asuka, I think he is around 14 now, he has many names, Oskanosk, Ginger Ninja, Ratty Boy, and of course Captain Slow, he takes so long to get from the bottom of the garden up to the top and each step is taken with precision and a great deal of timing.
He had heard my husbands call, its a unique blend of some kind of smooch and a suck, yes I know weird, but hey, thats my man for you, anyway Asuka was on his way up and my husband turned to me and said “I better go give him some love and then I will clean the pool and come back to you”
Although my husband was always full of this sort of love, today it hit me very deep and I was made aware, that 5 years ago a wonderous soul and mine connected and I felt loved deeper and unconditionally than I would ever have known before, but not only was that love radiated to myself, but to my daughter Taylor who he has supported and loved and sat up at 3am proof reading her Law Exams and helped her move house numerous times until they both fell into an exhausted heap. Also to Taylors daughter Elara, our granddaughter, who he helped enter the world as we were both present not only through, each and every scan and Drs appointment, but held Taylors leg as “BG” entered the world. Kelsey, my eldest daughter who lives in another state so doesnt get to see him every week like Taylor and BG, but he loves and supports her and every thing she does and is so very proud of the amazing woman she has become. Then of course there is his princess Uzume, our other cat with her sleek possum like fur and is treated with an escort to her bed every night, safely tucked away from harm by this amazing man.
And of course me, this man loves me and cares for me in a way that no one else could, our rapport, love, craziness, laughter, happiness and support is something I never take for granted.
He gets my crazy side, adores my beautiful side, encourages my creative side, holds my hand through my emotional side and comforts my pain when it arises.
I am blessed to have met this beautiful soul I agreed to meet, my husband, to be there by my side and I love him with all my heart.
I love you Boodgie
Is there a difference between a Psychic and a Tarot Card Reader?
Absolutely there is!
I have run Psychic and Spiritual development classes for many years and I love to teach people to bring out their inner intuition, I also love to teach them how to read the Tarot, however they are two totally different things.
let me explain
I am a Psychic, I can intuitively connect to peoples higher self and communicate with them, I can also communicate with people who have passed over and Spirit guides both my own and other peoples.
I didn’t go to any class to learn this it was an innate ability that grew as I nurtured it and I nurtured it by reading copious amounts of books, attending workshops on different things and meeting like minded people. During this exploration I picked up some hints and tips along the way and threw away the rest, chosing to develop my own understanding on how things worked.
I even went to tarot classes to learn how to read them, wondering if this was where my untapped energies lay. I became more and more disheartened as I listened to the teacher tell me a story of the tarot, the fool and his journey. I tried for a long time to try and retain all this information and one day I decided I just wanted to throw myself out there and offer my “help” to others in what ever way that would present itself.
I put an add in the local paper advertising my readings and was overwhelmed by the response, I was booked out in 2 days.
I set up my room and paced anxiously as my first customer arrived for her reading…I began the reading using the tarot cards and then I stopped, I looked up at her and I said….
“Who is Mary”?
She replied “Thats my mother”
“Who is John”? I asked
“Thats my father” she replied
OK, so John is telling me that your mothers legs need to be elevated and she needs to rest…I looked at her expectantly and she said “my mum has bad swelling in her legs from doing too much and my dad John passed away a few months ago”
I went on to tell her more and more that was now flowing through and when the reading was over I lay on my bed and cried. I could not understand where all that came from, I was shocked to say the least, but I had another lady due to arrive so pulled myself together and welcomed her as she arrived.
We sat at the table and this time I didn’t use the tarot cards I simply looked at her and asked her a few questions to let a connect begin to flow and flow it did!
This is now how i do my readings I just let them happen, the information just flows through me, I have no need to use any “tools” to do this.
If I were to use a tarot card and read symbols and colours and relate the story in the tarot to the person sitting in front of me, am I not doing just that? Telling them a story?
Photo taken by my wonderful friend Blanche F
My wife, Aurora. I know this blog is her domain, her mechanism for expression and sharing, but I also know that she would not mind me expressing my own feelings here, especially as they are (hopefully) relevant.
Aurora has a gift. It is a gift that is very rare. It is a gift that gives her great joy but can also result in great stress, which in turn contributes to her illnesses. It is a gift that gives her great insight, compounding her natural intuition. It is a gift that allows her to see, listen, teach and communicate on a level not shared by anyone I have ever known.
This gift can be labelled as empathic and/or psychic ability but I know it only as love. Pure love, in fact. A love that is not specific, selfish, needy or greedy, but that is just given, unconditionally. Those close to her, myself included, often take it for granted, get used to it being ever present, but rarely acknowledge it.
My gift to you, my beautiful wife on this Valentine’s Day, is simply acknowledgement of your gift, which touches and affects me and everyone you come into contact with, on every day of every year.
I love you.
I have had some lovely emails and messages asking where I am and how am I going. Well I am going great thank you and I am still around.
It has been an extremely busy past 12 months with readings and healings helping and connecting with amazing people both here in Australia and overseas and as many of you know I only really blog when I feel inspired to do so with some passion.
I don’t blog often but I am always around so please feel free to enjoy the blogs I have posted so far and always email me if you would like to chat or book a session with me. I look forward to it!
Much Love Always